Happy 2018 friends! I hope you all had a restful holiday season and a good first month
It’s been a year since my last blog post, so I have a lot to share with you!
The annual odes have become a tradition on my blog that I love doing, so I hope what I learned in 2017 resonates with you!
I would definitely say that I’m skilled at being hard on myself. I’ve put these unrealistic expectations on myself to be this perfect young woman; I felt like I needed to make up where I fell short. Having learning disabilities has had a huge role into why I can be so hard on myself because ever since I was a young girl, I wanted to prove everyone wrong. I’ve written about struggling with my identity before and have found God in all of it. But to be honest, I didn’t experience true healing until 2017 where I found His grace, hope and love all over again.
2017, this is your ode.
2017 was a healing year for me because I learned more about how my heavenly Father sees me. I began to tune out who the world thinks I should be and even who I think I should be because my worth is so much more than that. I had to realize that life happens but God is in every single millisecond of it. He is full of compassion, love and grace that I will never fully be able to wrap my head around, but it’s something I am determined to cling on to because I’ll never be able to feel it by myself. This is how I know God is real.
I re-discovered what it means to have hope, grace and love because I wanted it. My soul longed for these feelings because I strongly believe that these are essential to living and thriving.
Another huge healing part of 2017 was having people from Understood, an AMAZING organization that has resources to help parents who have kids who have learning disabilities, come in and film my story. The process of filming the video was awesome, but the feedback I got from friends, family and complete strangers was the best part. God used that beautiful and overwhelming opportunity to use my story to speak to other people. On top of that he showed me how I can have grace for my short-comings, love for my brain and hope in my abilities. (Watch the video here!)
I don’t love myself, by myself. I can’t give myself grace without knowing God’s grace, and I don’t know hope until I am filled with the hope that He died on the cross for me to have. What matters to me now is that my identity and label is this: I am a beloved daughter of God.
When thinking about God’s grace in scripture, I love what 2 Corinthians 12:9 says:
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is perfected in weakness.”
Therefore, I will most gladly boast all the more about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may reside in me.” (CSB)
His grace is enough.
So here’s to 2018: a year of growing and embracing life and learning to take it a day at a time. I won’t have it all together because life’s a journey, but God and I will have grace towards myself and others.
Thank you for reading and I hope 2018 is full of many beautiful moments along the way.
Until next time,